What the hell was I thinking!!!

You know, I was just thinking the other day, that I am totally out to lunch, well not ALL the time, but the day me and the hubby choose who was going to stand up for us on our wedding day....I really think I must of been drunk or possibly high! Half the people that were in our wedding party have dropped off the face of the earth, I am thinking I just don't get it! I thought these special people would be with us till death due us part, and what did we get! Rotten potato's with eyes too! Special people my butt! If I could turn back time, like most of us would like to do at LEAST once in their lifetime, knowing what I know today, we would of NEVER choosen half of them. Can you imagine, one of your bridesmaids, never paying for ANYTHING in her time being their for you....yes that's right! Ok, Ok, she paid for her dress, that was it. I remember my best friend...(Matron of Honor) pulled me aside on the day the girls were throwing my bridal shower, and informed me that she was not going to be able to make it as she was doing something that was more important than attending her good friends shower, and too top it off, the girls chipped in on a gift, and she didn't even pay her share of it. Another girl paid for her....WTH? Then she shows up at the wedding late and states she forgot our wedding gift, and that we would get it later, now don't get me wrong, we are not the type out for the gifts, but do you think she showed up with anything? NOPE, not even a friging card? We also had a Jack and Jill and she never made it to that either.....any yes, she was a good friend....at least that's what I thought. Another girl in our wedding who I went to school with, grade school right into High School, got so angry with me because I didn't get her message she left me on our answering machine, she up and told me that she hated my guts for never calling her back......gee what the hell, I didn't even get your damn message to being with. And then she had the nerve to say to hubby and I that we were now in the "Married Couple Group" and were snobs???? I am lost, it's funny because she was going to get married the following year, so um, wouldn't that make her just as much a married snob as us??? Think about it sweetie....are you dense? Her boyfriend at the time was also in our wedding party and what ever she said went, so he stopped talking to my hubby after she and I had our outs! And the last issue is with another friend of mine, who I too grew up with, going to grade school and high school with, well, crap.....she moved away bout 45 mins from where I live and hasn't spoken to me in about a year, and just one day, writes me a letter and asks when she can come over for a visit.....ummm, hummm, what would you do? Chalk it up and not respond. I guess all I can say is I am fed up with the drama? I look at our wedding photo's and think, wow, should of thought about this alittle better....now I got all these damn photo's with people I don't even speak to anymore.....maybe I should just cut the ones out that I don't hear from anymore?

Well heck, that was my two cents worth! I feel better getting that off my chest, it's only been 5 years of it boiling up!